Take this life, it's fading fast. I can't breath this putrid air for any longer. It's collapsing my lungs. Hold on to me, hold on, for I am going to leave. When I go, don't worry, I'll take all that I can that bothers you. Be it another person, or an emotion, I'll take it with me. Take my life, pull the plug, kill me now. I can't stand the comments, the excessive tears, kill me.
Take this life, I'm going away. Tell me you love me one last time, I shall disappear in the shadows I belong in. Curse me to hell. That's where I belong. Engulfed in the smoldering pits of the inferno. Take me away, show me there really is a God, show me he exists, let me stand on his doorstep pleading for innocence, let me finally solve my problems. Play that happy song, play your song, play my song, play OUR song. Play it loud, remember me, as I am fading.
Please, take this life away from me as I am a fallen angel, cursed for enternal pain and suffering. I don't belong here. My life no longer counts as a life worth living. I love you, I need you, I finally have you. All the interference, all the commotion. Have I really won?
Take this life, no, take this pain away from me. Put me out of my misery, forever, and all eternity.
I'm not afraid to mutilate my body. I don't care. Do you? You sit there and stare as I tear my arm apart and watch the blood stream down my hand. Your eyes only fixed on the horrible monster you created. You don't give a fuck on how I hurt myself. You only cower in fear as my eternal hate for you grows. You made me this way, get ready. Soon your soul will be as mutilated as mine, your corpse rotting in Hell, your arms mangled. Get used to it, be prepared for it, enjoy it. Embrace your loneliness. No one will ever want you. Go break someone else heart.
Haha, written by me....though they suck. I am taken.... Uhm... yeah. :/
Hmmm, I am crazy, psychotic at times, nerdy at times, and yes, even depressed. I do any dare that is given to me (within reason... -_-) and I will even go that extra mile to get the guy I want... I love my friends, love my life, am happy as can be... (so far...) Hmmm, I am DEFINITLY a hard core rocker chick. Love the classics (Classic rock and even Mozart.), I love screamo (guilty as charged), and my first band that I fell in love with was Slipknot. I will always love them <3
R.I.P. Paul Gray, beloved bassist for Slipknot and beloved husband/father. You will be missed, bro. Keep rocking, even in the afterlife. :/
~~ Night Owl ~~ ;) I am an insomniac and you will most likely see me online more during the night. Ahahah XD
I wanna move to Germany.... I love germans. Lol :P
I'm waiting here alone to hear your call, but you aren't here.
I sit alone waiting for your yelling, but you aren't here.
I lay here in bed wondering what I did, and you aren't here.
The realization that you will never be with me hurts. I love you, you big dumby...
R.I.P. Me and 'Him'...
Thanks for keeping my heart. Can you give it back now? I kinda need it....
Here I stand, to as not declare 'I told you so' but to laugh in your face. You stood before me and said 'Together forever'. Though, nothing lasts forever. Not even in eternal damnation does forever exist. Tell the truth. Tell me your intentions and when you plan to shatter me into a million pieces so I can't live anymore. I cry to forget, I laugh to forget, I die to forget. You and your pitiful smile in which I once believed in. Lies. That's all I have ever known. My endless regret for falling into Hell with you adds salt to my wounds. This love, this hate is burning me awake at night. Why can't I get you out of my head at night? Why can I not forget you? You're a monster, a liar, you cheated me, and you have gotten away with murder. You have broken my heart and left me stranded and to die. For this, I blame you.
Here I stand, in an honorable pose to make you jealous. I have found my one, my only, my everything. He pieced together my heart in where you shattered it. He brought me to life, where you simply killed me. At least he doesn't lie to where he says we can 'last forever'. You go with my friends, my enemies, whomever you want. I will go towards my life and heal my wings. I don't want to see your smile anymore. Perish in hell. Perhaps there, you will find a suitable person to shatter your reason for existance. Karma. It's a bitch, right?
Here I stand, lonely, waiting. I still have no idea where to go from here. Though you came, you left, he came, he left, I have no reason for existance. I spoke too soon when I said you and him were both my everything. Or was it that when you left you took my everything away from me? I laugh at my stupidity.
Here I stand, begging. Come back to me, my love. You stole my heart, murdered me, broke my wings, cursed me to hell, and spat at my face. You have fully gotten away with murder. Repent your sins. Come back to me, forever again. Why is it that even after you are gone, I still mourn that time when you left me? Why is it that I have never forgotten the good times we had, and cannot recall the bad? When did things go wrong? Why did the outcome turn to be a heinous tragedy?
Dear my love,
Sing for me my love. Sing that song from our first date. Sing to repent your sins. Though you have not yet committed any, I fear you will one day. Until my death bed, I shall fear that you will leave me. I don't want that. I love you, with all of my heart. You leave me, and my heart will go with you. It kinda has a mind of its own.
Sing for me my love. Sing that song from our wedding. I will never forget that day. You have sworn to me that we will be forever and so far, you have not lied. When will I stop being so paranoid, I wonder. You have devoted you life in loving me. I love you, and I always will.
Sing for me my love. Sing that song from our 25th anniversary. You have always been there for me. When have I been there for you? Of course there was the time at your mothers house. Remember when she blamed you for the fallen vase? The cat still have the pieces of the vase inbetween her toes! It was me who convinced you mother to forgive you and blame the cat. Though, when will my heart cease to be paranoid?
Cry for me my love. Cry from the time I left this world. I do not regret all those years being paranoid. I realize that, yes, though I did waste my time, the outcomes of me not being so paranoid would not have you standing at my funeral. You have stayed with me this long, and you have vowed to be together forever.
Don't die for me my love. Don't die from me not being there for you. You need to eat, to live. Those old bones still have some mileage on them! Go out. Have fun! Just remember to tell me all those memories you will have when I am gone when you join me in death.
Come to me my love. Come to me as your time has come. After 3 years of separation, we can finally be together. I can finally see you again. I can finally slap you from when you almost killed yourself when I died. I can finally smell your calming smell. Though, it is a shame that you left me 5 years ago. You were at my funeral, crying. You visited me everyday. Do you still sit back and regret when you, a 73 year old man, cheated on his loving wife with a younger woman? Do you want me back? Hmmm, tough call. I don't believe in long distance relationships. Have fun in Hell!
Love, your wife.
Recite to me the phrase you once whispered into my ear. Did you really mean it? Did it ever occur to you that that lie would kill me in the end? You told me that and I believed it. You loved me like no other, and I had faith in you. Was this my own stupidity or was it yours? Here's a thought. The next time you whisper 'I love you' in some gullable woman's ear, just say it with meaning. Say it and keep that promise. Make her your one reason to live, your one reason to die, and your one reason to kill. Make her your everything, unlike what you did for me.
I don’t wanna lose you. Your every breath is what I live for. Your intoxicating aroma, your steady heartbeat, you are everything to me. When are you going to realize this? I walk next to you along the beach. I hear the waves crash onto the shore. That would resemble our relationship; crashing. The moment I saw you with her, my breath had stopped. When you left, I had died as our being together did. Where did I mess up? Or was it that you messed up and are blaming me? You walk into the distance. Towards the light and dry land, as I am stuck here in the middle of an ocean. Nowhere to go, no one to see. Just to perish in the wet water and seemingly endless crashing waves that crush my lungs. I am stuck, you are free. Why is this? Poseidon had pitied me and I finally found my one and only. As your prostitute had left you, remember this. Those waves you have crashing against your heart? Yeah, those were me. You finally realize the pain I was in as you see your lover walk into the distance and you stuck in the ocean. That seemingly endless ocean that you will die in. Every once in a while you will return to it, find a new way out, then fall back into it. The never-ending procedure that we all call life. Yeah, it sucks, but I didn’t want us to end. You did.
Thanks to all who actually took the time to read this shit... :D It means a lot to me.. :DD
Anime..... Invader Zim, Chowder, Flapjack, etc....
Ehhh, anything on my level really. I don't normally read though.