Hey, I'm Haven, and I'm using my about me, to tell you about my biggest hero.

Alright, here we go.

The first time I heard Avenged Sevenfold was in 2006 after I saw the Seize the Day video. It was just a normal day, and I was flipping through music channels, and the beginning caught my attention. I listened to the song, and thats when I fell in love with them and they had became my favorite band. Even though, then, I said that it was AFI, or My Chemical Romance.

Well, when they released the video for Almost Easy. Since I was 13, and my mom had to except that I was never going to grow out of rock, I got her to let me go to my first concert. Avenged Sevenfold 2007 on Decmember 17th at the knitting factory, or at the time, The Big Easy. I had talked her into buying me City of Evil as well.

Now I had all four of their cds and songs memorized by March of 2008. And for you guys that know me, know I had some pretty big problems on my life. I knew the background of every memeber in the band, and through the hard times of debating suicide, and cutting myself for satisfaction, or to know that everything I was going through was real, I idolized Jimmy. I remember how I would sit in my room, and listen to Avenged Sevenfold for HOURS non-stop. The song that has had the most impact on me is Afterlife, not only did it keep me from committing suicide, but, it has special meaning to me.

James's life growing up taught me that if you ever want to be anything, you have to work, and believe it will happen. He was a high school drop out, and he became one of the most well known drummers on the planet. He was amazing. He is probably and always will be the best drummer ever. To me, he will always be a God. If it wasn't for him and his band, honestly, I would not be here today. I love him as if he was someone I knew my whole life.

I got to see them again though. February 9th, 2009. Everyone who was there got to sing Happy Birthday to him. That was the highlight of my night. That night was my most memorable night. If I had a choice, I would relive that night over and over again.

Monday, December 28th, 2009: I get a text from my best friend saying OMG. So, I asked her what was wrong, thinking it was boy or friend problems, but instead, it was the most horrifying thing I've read.

"The rev is dead..."

Automatically, tears began pouring from my eyes, and they wouldn't stop. I kept asking her if she was sure, and she kept saying yes. So I stopped playing video games and got online and went to their official website to see if anything was posted, and sadly, it was.

I don't know what happened to me, but I just had a giant breakdown. It felt as if my heart had shattered even more than it was, I felt like I couldn't breathe, and these sharp pains kept going through head, my chest and everywhere hurt. I was blinded by how much I was crying. I texted my sister, and of course, she didn't believe me. Just like I didn't believe her when Casey Calvert died. She tried to comfort me to the best of her ability because she lives in North Dakota, and I'm here in Washington.

I kept getting texts informing me that he was dead, and I just couldn't take any of it. I was crying, I was in pain, and all I wanted to do was wake up and it all be a nightmare.....

but it wasn't. I didn't wake up. It was reality. And it just slapped me right in the face. Its been almost three days since he passed away, and I still bust out crying over it. At least every two minutes. No matter what everyone say, I am never going to get over this, I am never going to recover. James has saved me like no other person has. He made me think that life is worth living, not to care what people think, and just do what you do best. No matter how many people help me through this, I'm never going to be the same. I just lost my idol, my role model, and most importantly, my savior.

James, I know that you'll never read this, but I love you. I didn't expect February 9th, when your Spokane show sang Happy Birthday to you, would be your last. Its painful to look back on it. No one knew that would be your last birthday. No one expected it to be your last birthday. You have saved me from everything I have faced, even myself. At Thanksgiving some people asked me what I was thankful for, and you know what I told them? James Sullivan, and Avenged Sevenfold. I would have rather my life be taken, instead of yours. You were amazing. You, honestly, were the best drummer in the world. Many people miss you more than words could ever explain. You took a HUGE piece out of everyone. Your bandmates included. I can't look at Avenged Sevenfold the same, knowing my hero is no longer with us. I took this whole thing harder than anyone that knows me. I haven't smiled for real but once. I just hope that everything will get better for me, the Avenged Sevenfold family, Matt Sanders, Zackary Baker, Brian Haner, Brian Haner Sr, Johnathan Sewerd, and theirs and your family. You'll always be in my thoughts Jimmy. James. The Reverend. Forever. ll forever be missed.

hmmm, Music is the only thing I take interest in. :D

Don't watch it much, and when I do, I LOVE zombie movies. Any scary movie. I love it. :D

Hmmm, Don't read much, I read the twilight series and almost died. :/