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Location:
Portland, OR

Member Since:
10.03.07

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It is me, so there's really not that much to say about me. I'm not more relevant than the morning fog that disappears when the sun comes up. one day I will be dead and no one will ever remember me, everything I am, everything I created, everything I said, my thoughts, my love, my passion will be forever lost in the immense vastness of space and time, and no one will ever know, nor remember me.

Since I love Music so much, this website is a good outlet for that. My Music player closely resembles my personality, when you think you know me, you have another thing coming. :-) So make sure you check out my music player, and my pictures, OK?

Hey by the way, you will notice a picture in my collection that most people find disturbing, is the picture of the bloody girl sitting against the wall, that is actually my cousin, and she's just posing, all you see is red hair die and lots of theatrical makeup, she was working in some project last year for college, she's studying art, and her boyfriend took the picture. I asked her if I could put it up in my picture collection and she said yes. She loves it when I tell her how people freak out over her picture, she loves the attention. (Sorry, the picture got removed by Jango some months a go)

So people, stop freaking out and passing judgement before you know the facts, and try to be more open minded. Specially people here in the U.S. People here are more sheltered and easily shocked and close minded. I don't have that problem with my European friends, they are more open minded and more evolved than people here in the U.S.

That's the thing about me, if you are my friend, I will accept you just the way you are, I will not judge you in any way nor I will try to impose my believes on you. I believe in free will all the way, But I am not perfect. I'm just a man, full of defects and imperfections.

We make the choices in our lives that brought us here to this moment in time, whether is good or bad. It is the choices that we make that enslaves us all, there is no god punishing us, there is no god testing us, it is the result of what we previously chose that makes us happy or miserable. So if you are going rob a bank, or kill somebody, or help the elderly cross the street, or return a lost child safely home, remember and be aware that there is consequences for everything we do, good or bad. So choose wisely next time.

You shouldn't have to feel guilty or ashamed for doing what you love, or what it feels good to you, Our bodies are capable of experiencing great levels of pleasure, so instant self gratification is in order, there is nothing wrong with that. Free will, you make the choices, you will experience the consequences of those choices. Nothing or no one is punishing you. Free will all the way baby. :-)

I hate the zoo, we humans have absolutely no right whatsoever to put innocent, helpless, beautiful animals in cages, just for our amusement. It is disgusting, I think to my self: How would I like it if other beings were to put me in a cage, just for their amusement and entertainment. And they don't care if I have feelings, or if I'm hurting inside. How would I like it? Believe me, I'm not some kind of nut, nor I belong to any organisations, this is my personal opinion, and how I feel about the zoo.

I'm a easy, mellow, lay back kind of guy, it takes a lot to make me angry. I'm hard working, and very responsible. and I've been told I "make wonderful lover" lol I'm like wtf? are you sure is me you are talking about? lol.

I love High Heels, no wait, that came out wrong. lol, I love Girls on High Heels, but which heterosexual male doesn't? huh? you know what a mean? It is a very powerful image, and it takes over our minds and bodies, that's why heterosexual males are doomed, but I love it, I can't help it, after all, I'm just a male, and I love been a male. lol.

I love to cook, I fact I'm a great cook, I created a few recipes already. I definitely love creating in the kitchen :-)

I love the fashion from the 1930's, 1940's and 1950's, the women back then were so beautiful, I love the way they did their hair and their makeup and their dresses and their shoes, lol basically everything. lol.

I am sarcastic and a smart ass, quick witted and some times I have a dry and cynical sense of humor, I laugh at my self, and at my own ethnicity and it's stereotypes. I'm a positive person, I'm very random and goofy and immature at times. But I am also a hopeless romantic and very affectionate with the right Woman. And also very family oriented, specially in a long term relationship, and or marriage, those two can not survive without commitment, love, trust and dedication.

I love Vampires, Witches and all Creatures of the Night. Vampire Girls and Witches are hot and beautiful. In my personal and humble opinion of course. lol :-)

Well that's it for now, if you want to know more about little 'ole me, just ask me. I will answer pretty much anything, I wont bite, I will hide my fangs. lol :-)

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Update 2-25-09

I gave up on love a long time a go. After having three mayor relationships failed, and having my heart carved out of my chest and stomped on (and not in a good way) callously and without mercy. So is time I realise that there is no one out there for me. and I am for nobody. I just have to accept it. Here's a poem about me:

The lonely soul wanders

Alone in the walks of life

No other soul as his companion

The lonely soul wanders

Alone in the daybreak

he does his duties

In the walks of life

The lonely soul wanders

Alone in the life

He meets many other souls

Who comes to be

Unfit for the lonely soul

The lonely soul wanders

As the years pass by

The lonely soul became

More lonely, with no other

souls as his companion

The lonely soul wanders

Alone in the walks of life

The lonely soul in to his grave

he will go, for there was no

other souls like him

Alone in his grave

The lonely soul wanders no more.

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So go ahead and request me, I accept everyone. I love everyone :-) And

feel free to copy my pictures if You like them. I replace them every month or so. Just comment on them please :-D

Curve "Low and Behold"

It never rains but it pours

On a sleepy town, north of New York

It's an old, old score

It's a cold, cold world

How we gloat

At others misfortune

A nation of reptiles

Given to nothing

It's an old, old score

It's a cold, cold world

It's an old, old score

It's a cold, cold world

Tainted you could say

But never frightened

For it is not in my nature

I was born of stronger stuff

Lies and deceit will never be enough

It's just cause and effect

Effect and frustration

That leads to desperation

And eventual separation

It's an old, old score

It never rains

A nation of reptiles

Given to nothing

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Update 5-29-09

On the sixth day god created Man in his own image. Now is up to us to figure it all out. Right... wrong... good... evil. In each of us is the capacity to decide what drives our actions. So what is it, then, that makes some choose selflessness, the need to devote themselves to something greater, while others know only self- interest, isolating themselves in a world of their own making? Some seek love, even if unrequited, while others are driven by fear and betrayal. There are those who see their choices as dark proof of god's absence while others follow a path of noble destiny. But in the end, good, evil, right or wrong... what we choose is never what we really need. For that is the ultimate cosmic joke. The real gift that god has left behind.

But been able to choose is what makes us different, special, unique. Regardless of the out come. It is what sets us apart from the rest of the living creatures in this world. It is what makes us special, it gives us purpose and it gives us meaning, self-awareness, with out it we would be just like the rest of the creatures in this world.

So, there is good and there is evil, right and wrong, good people and bad people. And if we're blessed with wisdom, then there are glimpses between the cracks of each where light streams through... We wait in silence for this times, when sense can be made... when meaningless existence comes in to focus, and our purpose presents it self. and if we have the strength to be honest, then what we find there staring back at us is our own reflection... bearing witness of the duality of life... that each one of us is capable of both... the dark and the light... of good and evil... of either of all. And destiny, while marching ever on our direction, can be rerouted by the choices we make... by the love we hold on to and the promises we keep.

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Update 7-12-09

By design the race of man is half man & half beast. Thou art not beings of reason, but, rather beings capable of reason. There is much difference between the two. Exercise thy capabilities and free will.

Pond, lonely moonlight reflecting from it,

I look how the wind is altering the surface...

Figures of moonlight shiveringly playing in the pond,

glittering, modifying, multiplying, imitating life...

Group of reflections in the surface,

raging wildly, spinning and swinging...

Each moment passes, never to be the same again,

irretrievable, intangible and out of my reach...

One lonely spot of light, far away from others,

quivering, forgotten, slowly fading away...

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update 7-17-09

Shining eyes and stolen glances

small clues to your sacred secret

Missed opening lead to lost chances

Memories you haven't built yet

Every ounce of joy coupled with sadness

Each of your smiles stunted and caged

Your deep love disguised with emptiness

To hide scars from this war you've waged

I sit back and marvel at what I can observe

Proud of your determination, your strength

I hope and pray from this course you'll not swerve,

Continue running this race through its full length.

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update 11-24-09

To survive in this world, we hold close to us those people of whom we depend, we trust in them our hopes... our love... our passion... our creativity...our darkest secrets... and our fears. But what happens when trust is lost? Where do we run for safety, protection, peace and the assurance of stability we once had? When the credibility of the people we trusted with our very lives and our hearts and the things we believed in and shared vanish before our eyes, and we finally realized after all those years that everything has been nothing but a lie. When all seems lost... The future unknowable, our very existence in peril, and our heart is been carved out of our chest and stomped on, wondering how can we go on living with so much pain inside that it hurts to even breath. All we can do is reach out for help, and hope that the people that have been there all along still there, waiting to help us unconditionally and with open arms. Do we know our friends? Are they still in our lives? Can we count on them to come to us in our darkest hour? When our love and our trust has been betrayed.

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Update 11-29-09

(Trample Fetish) A very dear friend of mine asked me today: Why do you like been danced on? Doesn't it hurt? So I tried to explain to Her why, and this is what I told Her: Yes, I love it. The feeling of a Girl standing on me (preferably with shoes on) pressing down on me, is just intoxicating, makes me feel strangely alive. Now if She dances on me, oh my god! I could just die of pleasure right there and then. Yes it hurts, but is the special kind of hurt that only a Girl can give me, so I live for it, and I could die for it, lol so I love it

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Update 7-12-10

Am I on my own?

Do you hear my voice?

Seeking shelter

To be free.

When these crowds appear

I just hide away.

Is there someone here

Watching me?

Lift my heavy heart and help me fly!

Heal my troubled soul and let me rise!

Do I think too much?

Do you feel the same?

For I am weary,

I am tired.

I try to find some light

Where the cold wind blows.

I see shadows

Through the night.

Lift my heavy heart and help me fly!

Heal my troubled soul and let me rise!

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Update 7-14-10

A fool there was and he made his prayer

(Even as you and I!)

To a rag and a bone and a hank of hair

(We called her the woman who did not care),

But the fool he called her his lady fair

(Even as you and I!)

Oh the years we waste and the tears we waste

And the work of our head and hand,

Belong to the woman who did not know

(And now we know that she never could know)

And did not understand.

A fool there was and his goods he spent

(Even as you and I!)

Honor and faith and a sure intent

But a fool must follow his natural bent

(And it wasn’t the least what the lady meant),

(Even as you and I!)

Oh the toil we lost and the spoil we lost

And the excellent things we planned,

Belong to the woman who didn’t know why

(And now we know she never knew why)

And did not understand.

The fool we stripped to his foolish hide

(Even as you and I!)

Which she might have seen when she threw him aside—

(But it isn’t on record the lady tried)

So some of him lived but the most of him died—

(Even as you and I!)

And it isn’t the shame and it isn’t the blame

That stings like a white hot brand.

It’s coming to know that she never knew why

(Seeing at last she could never know why)

And never could understand.

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To me there is nothing more beautiful in this world than a Woman in high heels, it is the very apidamy of Femininity and Beauty in this world. The very thing men over the centuries, and till this day had died over. I'm so glad I am a man, so I can appreciate, love and cherish Woman and Her beauty.

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Creating music, looking for love(what ever that means) and working really hard at making others happy.

Hey check my pics. out, and tell my what you think, I change them every month. Thanks!

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I'm not particular about TV, I know there's shows out there I will probably like. but I don't know OK!

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la Dulce vita, rear window, vertigo, the crow, Belle De Jour. just to name a few.

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Anything I can get my hands on. From The Bible to Mary Shelley, Anne Rice, Prometheus Rising, Vampire Almanac, The Satanic Bible, and Voters Pamphlets. I don't discriminate. :-)

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