DISARRAY

there is a minute when i happened to look away

away to the side of my face and i didnt come back

this shadow was too much for me to ask it to stay

sit and stare she said

just sit there and stare

it comes in waves my friend

this moment to feel

i fell into it somehow and i misstepped to the sidewalk

a crack lifted me up and then i hung by the treebranches

sit and stare she said

just sit and stare

my feet hang loose in the moonbeams

my harlot soft and sympathetic

you know my accent nolonger exists here

sit and stare she said

just sit and stare

my sweet prince had a price to pay when he looked up

at me and he sighed then shook his head

knowing, yes i said knowing i didnt belong there so i

sat and stared

just sat and stared

i speak with gumdrops in my mouth and my eyes

watered with disgust for i cannot say the words

just the body the languages speaks to a question

sat and stared

just sat and stared

hold onto me there and where i once was i will never be

i will not go back up there those tree branches that most say

belong to the moon i am not there now

i sit in puddles and speak in sonnets that discuss what is

not what was

and i am here now sitting and staring

just sitting and staring

the stars too bright the moonlight a ghost the crickets haunted

with their songs but you know they remember the truth

of who i am of what i am now and noone can share this secret

that we have now, my prince walked away with cloak in hand

disrobed and naked fighting nomore

and i am here now sitting and staring

just sitting and staring

no tears come to these eyes just puppets with drawstrings

and tubes with pastel paint so i try and make shapes with

my fingers and wait

and i am here now standing and peeling

standing and peeling the layers of this heart

away

away away

hold my hand and you will see

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