From: TX, United States
Genre: Dance/Electronica, Trip Hop, Indie Rock
After experimenting with an eclectic combination of styles and instruments in my room for years( electronic / latin Jazz / punk / hip hop /reggae / rock / funk)-( vocals / lyrics,guitar,sampler,piano,steel drums) it occurred to me that my bedroom wall probably wasn't my key demographic.It was time to move forward.Around the same time I started noticing pain in my arms while playing.Sureley this is nothing to worry about I thought,I mean its not like THE THING THAT HELPED ME DEAL WITH EMOTIONAL PAIN WOULD IN ITS SELF BECOME PHYSICALLY PAINFUL!But alas, it felt like the stars were aligned for the gods of irony to kick me in the nuts.I was told by the doctor I probably had tendonitis and that it might prevent me from playing music.Which struck me as odd at the time,I didn't think a dentist was qualified to make that diagnosis.But as it turned out another real doctor agreed.Needless to say I was devastated,he said there was a possible chance of recovery with physical therapy, and that I needed to stop playing for what could take months or more. Having to physically put my instruments away in hopes to MAYBE play them again was one of the hardest things I've ever done,and to top it off the therapy wasn't working.So I tried more doctors and different types of therapy,nothing, got more test done,nothing .This went on for years as the pain started to spread.I was watching my passion and dreams being ripped away by my own body while watching all my musician friends go on to follow their dreams. Slitting my wrists felt like the only thing my arms were good for a lot of the time.Sometimes I'd cave in and would pull my instruments back out.Feelin guilty that I was doing the thing that had always felt like the most positive way to deal with depression was pretty confusing.I was starting to feel like this was never gonna happen,It wasn't getting better and I wasn't gonna be able to be a musician if I'm constantly in pain while playing.Eventually I found out I have a chronic pain disorder and not tendentious, and have started treatments to try and take care of it.I also came to the realization that it was more painful for me not to play music and decided to move forward with or without pain. I found a certain inspiration in a quote from a composer and with the support of family and friends continued writing and started playing live around the Houston music scene solo and with other artist.Originally I was gonna try and keep this all a secret because I was embarrassed and thought it might prevent me from getting signed to a label.As it turns out recorded labels aren't the necessity they once were and artist can make a living through the internet with the people who connect with what I do.If theres one thing we all have in common it's pain and struggle, and I know there's people out there that have it way worse than me.I hope that in the same way I was inspired by other people's endeavors through adversities and art someone might get something out of my mine.